Three Living Legends Who Are Close To My Soul.

This is the happiest moment in my life.

Its true and I hope that everyone would agree to it...We do not know what is happening inside ourselves when we think or when we speak about or when we see/hear people speaking about or by chance when we see some miles apart 'the people' whom we admire,whom we wish we must be,who were with us in our difficulties,who were our inspirations,who were - without them we would not be here like this...

And thats they are....this page is dedicated to them who really are/will be close to my soul now/forever....

I do not and of course I cannot order them as 1,2,3...as I havent reached to that peak level to do this sort of seggregations and hierarchiarisations....

Well to start it... any way I need to start with a single person...will make myself convenient to do it by starting it with the one - whom I started hearing about when I was at my 10 years of age...Its My Evergreen Star ...The living Legend...Padmashree...Universal Hero....Dr of/for World Cinema - KAMALHASSAN....

He has influenzed and had created an unerasable impact on me...I dont lie normally (unnecessarily!) I accept it trully that when I watched my first movie of him (its Mahanadhi) I was not at the age of understanding the story....more of the dialogues...but the one aspect which pulled/pulling me towards him was/is - his dedication towards cinema...My first question to my mom about him was (though i know its the movie i am watching it....involuterily I asked...whether he was betrayed by his fellow friends really?Is she (shobana who acted as his daughter) his real daughter?...and so many n many....

Then,It would have been some (more than) 20 times I watched the same movie..

From him I learnt/learning ,

1.Must create a path by our self....shouldnt follow others..
2.Strive for perfection
3.Dedicate ourself in whatever field we are
4.Equip ourself and keep ourself updated on our area of interest
5.Must be NO:1 forever in our field.
6.Keep on going with the same power even when facing tons n tons of failures.
7.Create a record and do break it yourself everytime.

Ya I know u will be asking whether I follow it....may not now...but will definetly at some point in my life time...(will try to reach atleast3/6)...

Even now when i get upset,when I get hurted...the medicine which would cure me and get me back to my old world would be my Hero's Songs/Scenes/Interviews.....Its a real power tonic for me...Thanks Top Star!.

There were so many days,where i would be searching for his way of speech,his style,his walk in everyother people who cross me...I have said to my sis-Hey he looks like Kamal!she dances like Kamal....n so n so n so...And one day my dream came true (because of my father...thanks dad!)who took me to see him...I saw him..(the greatest moment !!)And now I see him as a god's master piece,tower of excellence...just feeling proud to have born in his period....Hattts offf!Keep going!

Friend....

Friend - a powerful word which has tons n tons of energy within it.If you can or if you have one , you are the richest of all.But not all gets the best.Ya starting from my end, would say that its the relationship which we and only we can decide on whether to start or to end or to pause or to continue...

Its important for us to get clear why we need an other hand, though we are blessed with so many n many blood relations around...It would sound stupid but its true its because we wouldnt get satisfied with whatever we have now or what so ever we would be having tomorrow...and so we are in need of a bond to share/to hear your/their desires...this minute..would like to pause...close your eyes and ask yourself what was the conversation that went for so much time which you had with your so called friend ...it would definetly account one of the ways in which you would have brought yours passion/desires in.Its absolutely not against the law..but think for a while is this the reason you are having a living being sitting near you as your friend..Many times we come across many good creatures..but its because of the so called "pre judging" capability we miss most of them,

1.She is stout she would spend so much money on nasty eatables always(oops its just the physic)
2.Hey this guy is walking slow,he doesnt want to accompany me(oops his walking style would be of that sort)
3.Hey she dresses so modern,she wouldnt stick to our cultue(hwz that?)
4.She doesnt look at my eyes while speaking,she is hiding something from me(thats great you have a CBI brain kudoos!)

Think twice while you select a friend but think hundred times before you decide to withdraw anyone from your life...

Three Became Four....

Its evergreen in my mind even now...on sep 1st,1993...early morning by 6.30a.m...my dad came rushing to me...Booma....Booma....GET UP...I woke up..starring at my dad...yenna pppa?I could know from his eyes that he is overjoyfulll....I was confident that he is going to buy me some chocolates ...he replied...thangachi pappa puranthachu!!!wow...I was very happy!felt like flying high!he asked me to get ready fast...he brushed me....explaining how the 15cms length new life looks like...I was dressed in white skirt and violet shirt(my wednesday uniform)...he took me in his bicycle ..i was sitting in front...i was asking so many questions...appa will you keep my name to her?she will play with me pa?can i take pappa in my hand pa?my dad was laughing for all my questions....still i remember he said...Booma "nee than periya ponnu...u must teach her everything...u must take care of her....so n so n so....i nodded for everything....then he stopped ridng...he said hey "ethuthan hospital...pappa vulla eruku"...I grabbed my dad's fingers..walked along...he opned one door...i saw my mother's face...she was lying on a bed...she called me inside...she made me to sit near her...n asked saptiya?I didnt even hear wat she said....I was searching ...my dad showed hey Booma come here....ooops a pinkish very small baaaby!!!i touched her ...she was like a velvet cloth....suddenly took my hand back...my dad again made me to touch.. n said she iz your sis take care!.(he doesnt know that one day we both would break his head and torture him continuously for all small silly things).....yummmy days and years have passed by...now i have her nearby...expecting her to comment on this post...awaiting to fight during our supper....Thanks God...for sending her to me!!!!

Ya I just wanna say u this one also,I hope I was in my 1st standard..not a studious girl I am..but a very studious girl...will be in the top 50 always(my class strength was 50)...It was in the month of jan i hope so....my fellow teachers encouraged and motivated us as much as they can to participate in the drill for the annual sports meet...I was the one who stood first to give my name(dont ever and never think i am interested in sports ,it was just because my teacher said she will give a new jiggujiggu pink dress for me)...ya practice session started..continuous trials...123456789 next change...987654321..next change...(I liked this rhythym... only rhythym)why is that in all the schools all the PT teachers are old and very strict?...ya there was also one of that sort....she called " students come out,form a circle...I was very thrilled...so many questions came to my mind...how to do that?go near geetha or divya?big one or a small one?...I was just thinking about these...but all were rushing and one girl pushed me and I fell down....ZZZZ..wat an injury ...I just dont know what happend...my PT miss came ...she took me in her hands..called my parents..my mom rushed...ho no...I was unable to open my left eye...I felt heavyness on my left side....I heard my mom's shoutings.. neenga ellam yenna panitu eruntheenga?pavam en chellam...so n so n so....they took me to the doctor...he sprayed some powders...gave some tablets...and finally came to my home...first thing I did was ..I got up from my mom's lap, went infront of the mirror and saw what happened really...nothing much...but a very big swelling just above my left eyebrows...I just turned to my mom in a very sad posture...mom immediately said ...pothum nee schooluku ponadhu...ennum oru varam leave potudu...hip hip hurray!i felt very happy...came back running to sleep in my mom's lap again!

My first day in my school...

ooops!feeling great to share this one.......my first day...i woke up early...my mom dressed me up in dark blue skirt and sparkling white shirt....new school bag hope had nothing except for some snacks and one 90 pages double lined notebook...(ya i must say this even now a school bag(new one) would be there always at my back whenever i walk out)....i was pakka ready..waved my hands to my father said him that i would meet him in the evening...walked through my streets...my mom was expressing her happiness to all those who crossed our path...reached my school....one dark angloindian women stopped us and asked ..what new admission?my mom replied ..yes....Booma...LKG 'B'...admission card mam...that dark lady took it from my mom...she saw that and allowed us to get inside...my mom took me inside LKG'B' ....she made me to sit in the first bench and said "Booma...nalla padikanum ...miss solratha nalla ketuko...azhakudathu..amma kellambatuma..."I was feeling alright till that moment...but the moment she said azhakudathu...I dont know wat happened i felt like crying aloud...I started as loud as i can...my mom tried to stop...but nothing stopped me...that dark women suddenly came inside ...she grabbed my hands and said "keep quiet! finger on your lips" turned to my mom"madam you can go...we will take care".I felt like slapping her...but didnt.. somehow convinced myself by beating a girl who was sitting and crying next to me....it started this way ...they taught me 123....ABCD.....YEPPAPPPA....so many years......